Tuesday, October 21, 2014
Last summer while reading through a book on mysticism I was struck by what I think some mystics refer to as the timeless moment, or a state of cosmological and existential clarity that many refer to as ENLIGHTENMENT. I could feel my brain changing, like a switch was triggered, filling my head with ecstasy, like a fluid, surging from the back of my head, expanding toward my frontal lobe. I felt humbled yet overjoyed, as what seemed like a glimpse of my place in the universe was unveiled to me, not in any directly communicative way, but by a renown understanding of life itself.
There was a spirit of encouragement, highlighting achievements of true importance in my life that I had given up on (mostly my writing). There was a moment of solidarity, testing my resolve to comprehend the state of humanity, or the ignorance of others (the incapacity to fully share the experience I was having.
There was remuneration of reward which usually pointed toward the happiness we find throughout our lives. I felt like I was able to explain almost anything- logically, emotionally, metaphysically. I began to write and create and ponder endless dramas, problems, inconsistencies and possibilities through the night. I began to understand the purpose of all things, it seemed, through the beauty of necessity, and a logic of love. The entire experience was beyond significance. I was ready, as though I was given the choice, to leave this life, entering into a state of paradise. From what I remember, I elected to stay, playing along with what soon seemed to be turning into a sport of the intellect, reason, passion, fueled only by the perfect algorithms of self-honesty.
Much of the specific content of what turned into a 'getting to the next level' type of esoteric mystery puzzle, or initiation, evades my long-term memory, as many pivotally significant moments do when I fail to write them down. I was convinced that I was rapidly evolving into something, becoming a saint, angel, guardian of humanity, adept, or possibly just 'growing up', through my independent and genuine effort to study and contemplate things of that nature.
I was also convinced that I was dead in some way, stuck in the dream of life, which was now my own to rule. That was maybe the first thing that seemed odd about the experience, which lasted what at this time seemed like weeks. My entire life was disoriented, and I was apathetic to petty trials and tribulations of the everyday mundane, yet basked in my once complex and hideous outlook of the world through a new lens of simplistically beautiful ideological aphorisms that would come into my head continuously as I started to develop through what I recollect as a new path of eternally expanding awareness.
One of my consistent worries was in my ability to explain to others what I had and was still experiencing, or better yet, finding someone who would be able to explain it to me, yet for the most part, in moments of doubt there were moments of reassertiveness in regard to the significance of what happened, or I would come to new levels of realization, displacing my confusion with wisdom, or the often applicable complacency of agnosticism.
My path of awareness was full of discovery, not necessarily of new and unknown things, but of rediscovering my view of the world, its history, people, our history, my history, curious about my family's history, the great achievements, advancements, progressions, paradigms and declarations that have come and continue to survive because of the contribution of countless people on this planet, all of whom are comparatively not a whole lot unlike myself when the potentiality of self-capability is unleashed by a swelling desire to affect life, or the people around me, through the sharing of my life, ideas, wonders, discoveries, experiences talents and abilities.
Reading and music calmed me for the most part of this.
The advancement of "levels" continued for some time, navigating my way (over-confidently for the most part) through riddles of existence, morality, logic, science, time, thought, metaphysics, etymology, ontology, spirituality, destiny, free-will, responsibility, justice, teaching and learning. There were no indications of numbers or grades, but at times it seemed as if I was being deemed titles, some I remember include hell's angel, kingpin, godfather, high priestess (I had no distinction in my mind between male and female, aside from sexual organs; i.e. it was as though I had achieved an androgynous mind-state, balancing between the two while encompassing both), sage, Freemason, Illuminati, adept, magician, "The Fool", "filled with the spirit", elder, guardian, mystic, saviour of humanity, the holy see, Lucifer, Abraxas, and Jesus. Each time this happened, my head felt like it was being lifted, or cleared out, like knots unfolding and vanishing, leaving me at peace with whatever (or whoever) had been wrestling my mind.
At times it felt as if I was solving problems for others, many of which were highly emotional, which would overwhelm me, and sometimes confuse my own grasps of reality. I would start to become paranoid, thinking I was an unknown puppet of the CIA, or Al Qaeda, or that everyone knew of the embarrassing things that I had done, or that I was raped as a child and that I just didn't remember it happening, or that when I fell asleep I would die, or my body would be used (sleepwalking) to kill people, and that it had happened before, or that I was invincible and immortal, or an android, or the Antichrist, etc...
Amidst the delusions I exhumed cautious persistence, striking hard through the obvious fallacies which only enraged my reasoning that anything in existence could even come to believe such monstrosities of stupidity, many of which appeared attractive through the guise of an over-inflated self-importance.
Thursday, September 04, 2014
What are the seeds of these groups, and by what means do they gather and commit crimes in the name of religion? Is the Islamic world so tainted with corruption that evil people twist its meanings to accomplish their own ends? I would think so. The people who join and support these groups must be so delusional and caught up in the false glories of their warfare, but what does it take to turn that around and prevent these groups from continually forming?
Islam needs a new prophet and teacher, one like Muhammad, who will come to destroy these falls idols that these extremists bow down to. One who will inspire young Islamic men and women to greatness in virtue instead of the sin and degradation that these extremist leaders inspire them to fall into. One who will make it clear to all that these obsessions and passions of pestilence must be stopped at their source and dealt with firmly. One who will inspire the entire Islamic world to wail in dismay and swiftly put out any inklings of behaviour that resorts to terrorism. To see these groups propagate in the manner that they do is entirely shameful for the Islamic world.
I pray that this sympathetic feeling is put in place by those who have the power to bring justice in that part of the world so wrought with the stigma of undue violence and depravity. It is very much a spiritual battle that requires constant vigilance against those who use religion for selfish and perverted achievements, and it is very much my opinion that the Islamic world certainly needs our prayers and support in the matter.
Sunday, April 13, 2014
The Symbol of the Rosy CrossThe well-known Symbol of the Rosicrucians—"The Rosy Cross"—appears in several forms, as for instance: The Cross surmounted by the Rose; the Sword (the Cross handle) attached to the Rose; the Cross surmounted by the Crown; a modification of the Phallic Cross, etc. The explanation of the general Symbol is Sevenfold—the three highest being reserved for Initiates of a certain rank, only, and therefore cannot be stated here. Below follow several of the meanings which we are permitted to translate and explain here:
(1) The Cross Surmounted by the Rose, indicates that the "Rose" (the mystic symbol of the Divine) can be attained only by the suffering of mortal life (symbolized by the Cross).
(2) The Sword Attached to the Rose indicates that the Sword of the Spirit must be actively employed in the Battle of Life, in order to win the reward of the Rose (the Rose being the reward bestowed by the Queen upon the victorious Knight, in the olden days).
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Figure 2. The Symbol of the Rosy Cross. (Conventionalized)
(3) The Cross Surmounted by the Crown, indicates that the suffering of mortal existence, borne by the faithful disciple of Truth, will inevitably be rewarded by the attainment of the Crown of Mastery. "Every Cross has its Crown"; and "No Cross, no Crown"; being old aphorisms seeking to express this truth.
(4) The Modified Phallic Cross, indicates the Sexual Duality of the Manifested Universe—the Presence and Activity of the Universal Male Principle and the Universal Female Principle, respectively. [The Modified Phallic Cross of the Rosicrucians, however, must not be taken to indicate any relationship of the Rosicrucians with the gross forms of Phallic Worship, however. The latter is merely the distorted shadow of the Truth, and must not be mistaken for the Reality.]
Concluding this introductory statement, and inviting you to enter into the study of the Secret Doctrine of the Rosicrucians, let us ask you to carefully consider the following words of an ancient aphorism: "The possession of Knowledge, unaccompanied by a manifestation and expression in Action, is like the hoarding of precious metals by the miser—a vain and foolish thing. Forget not The Law of Use, in this and all other things."
Friday, March 01, 2013
The revival of Platonic Orientalism was a serious attempt, many decades before Luther, at reforming Christianity by going “back to the sources”. Plethon seems to have hoped that, in fact, Platonic Orientalism would eventually take the place of Christianity as the religion of the future; Ficino believed, rather, that the ancient wisdom was perfectly compatible with the true Christian faith, and hence the rediscovery of the Greek sources could lead Christians back to the actual revelation at the core of their own religion; Pico, finally, was hoping for a great unification of all religious and philosophical traditions under the umbrella of the rediscovered kabbalah, and believed that the Jews would have to convert to Christianity once they had accepted the shocking revelation that a quintessentially Christian message formed the true secret of their own mystical tradition. Plethon and Ficino defended a “Zoroastrian” form of Platonic Orientalism, and Pico’s Christian kabbalah was its “Mosaic” counterpart.
Monday, February 25, 2013
Mr. Ed Fast,
The following is a letter I submitted to ICBC today regarding a $250 driver reinstatement fee that I was informed was necessary in order to renew my learner's licence:
"I recently applied to renew my learner's licence and was notified that I needed to pay a 'Driver Reinstatement Fee' of $250. This fee was not a part of the original documentation related to the procedures of my suspension, and according to your website it only applies to suspensions that are a year or more in duration. My suspension was of the duration of three months, so this obligatory fee has no bearing on my licence. Please have this remedied so I can renew my licence without having to pay this erroneous fee.
I will be contacting my member of parliament concerning this. Please forward any official documentation pertaining to the driver reinstatement fee to my email."
This is the only documentation I could find concerning this fee (via http://www.icbc.com/driver-licensing/tickets/licence-suspensions/reapplying-suspension):
If you have reached the end of a one-year suspension, you can reapply for your driver’s licence by following these steps:
Pay any outstanding fines or debts you owe to the court or government.
Pay any amounts owed to ICBC, such as for the:
driver penalty point premium or driver risk premium
Visit a driver licensing office with required ID.
Pay the $31 short-term driver’s licence fee and $250 reinstatement fee.
Aside from seeming an over-costly amount, I could find no valid reason for the existence of this fee and felt the need to inform you of the duress it is causing me by its nature of being a barrier to my societal rights. Being of low income, it is difficult to come up with the money they are asking for, and obtaining a valid driver's licence is a crucial step that will afford me more opportunities to build up wealth in my life and contribute to society. Although I disputed the stipulation that the fee should not apply to my case, I still felt the need to contest the necessity of this fee and its amount.
Thursday, November 03, 2011
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
"Discovered in an academic archive in the former East Germany, the elaborately bound volume of gold and green brocade paper holds 75,000 characters, a perplexing mix of mysterious symbols and Roman letters. The name comes from one of only two non-coded inscriptions in the document.
"Kevin Knight, a computer scientist at the Information Sciences Institute at the University of Southern California, collaborated with Beata Megyesi and Christiane Schaefer of Uppsala University in Sweden to decipher the first 16 pages. They turn out to be a detailed description of a ritual from a secret society that apparently had a fascination with eye surgery and ophthalmology."
Monday, November 29, 2010
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
"So i have some time on my hands and wanted to explore a little further into Existentialism.
As I have learned it, especially through Nietzsche's writings, there is no ultimate purpose or goal in the universe. When you die, nothing happens and that's all there is. However, it is up to the individual to create his own purpose in life and reason for living. This belief doesn't justify any sort of living. If a man's purpose in life is to kill and steal, there is his purpose. This also applies to the religious people...their purpose in life is to praise God and be a religious/good person. As an extistentialist, you can't blame them because that is their purpose.
That's kinda my philosophy on life so far....and Existentialism as I understand it. Am I getting the point of the theory or am I incorrect in what I believe what existentialism is?"
If a man's purpose in life is to kill and steal, there is his purpose. This also applies to the religious people...their purpose in life is to praise God and be a religious/good person. As an extistentialist, you can't blame them because that is their purpose.
I don't think anyone should stick to any one purpose, especially if it is something as appalling as killing. If someone has come to a place where they have decided that killing and stealing is their purpose, then I think it is only inevitable that others will make their own purpose a reaction against that.
As an extistentialist, you can't blame them because that is their purpose.
Yes you can blame them for things like screwing up the world if they have made something awry of their purpose in life, and if you have the capacity you can show them their errors in a hope that they may reconsider their ambitions.
It's true that we, especially those of us who aren't subject to enforced doctrines of 'right living', do have to at times to generate or find our own purposes to direct our will and energy.
Many people don't really seem think about this, and simply follow the social norms that are ingrained within whatever culture they are raised in. It's not that these norms are in themselves harmful, but they can be limiting if they are viewed as exclusive and regard deviation as anathema.
there is no ultimate purpose or goal in the universe. When you die, nothing happens and that's all there is.
I myself do not agree with this assertion. It's true that the purpose of existence itself is a baffling mystery that many people come up with their own answers for, but it is not something readily realized by everyone equally, like, say, the purpose of hunger and thirst. There are, however, clues that cause us to see patterns in life that point toward perceived purposes, like the evolution of species or the strive toward peace and equality. Also, I believe in (or rather, hold a high favour with the concept of) reincarnation, but I don't think that in any way would hinder my own perception of existentialism itself.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Below is a comment I posted in response to an article published in The Guardian today, titled Is religion a force for good... or would we be happier without God?. The article is an interesting read, asking five 'leading thinkers' what their take on religion is.
The sphere of religion today, as perceived by the general public, is in definite need of elucidation. As the article shows, the commentators themselves hold on to the negativities of religion as things that, for them at least, actually constitute what religion is about.
The role and purpose of religion itself is heavily scrutinized because many only see it for the harm that ignorant and non-understanding religious followers have done, using their faith as an excuse for their own misplaced infallibility.
Ideally it should be about encouraging benevolence, including non-violence and moral discipline. Other beneficial traits of religion include the search for mystical truths and spiritual discernment within ourselves and the world we live in, in order to better understand our place in existence (both personally and collectively).
Would we be happier without God?
This is irrelevant. Yes, some people may be happier without the god in their head that they think is god. Others would say that without god they would have no reason for being, but this only illuminates their lack of understanding and courage in the face of life itself, or their incapacity to at least hold their friends and family as reasons for being.
Even as a mystic, I cannot fully describe my conception of god, or even hope to convince another person as to the validity of my conception, unless they too have had similar spiritual experiences as mine. Still, I choose to seek the divine, keeping sacred these aspirations, even if only to have the solemn experience of sacredness toward life itself.
Although I am spiritually inclined at times, and hope to see religion someday in better favour with the general public, I also understand the animosity toward its insult to reason among the intellectuals and free-thinkers. With them I am in accordance; I easily dismiss much of what religious people pander to the masses, because they think they speak for the divine when they are only promulgating biased and one-sided doctrines and philosophies. Yet I am also put off that many disdain spirituality itself in light of these inaccuracies, and would rather tear down everything it is associated with than seek an open-minded and cautiously skeptic reciprocity of learning and tolerance.
Friday, November 19, 2010
There's a pretty interesting interview with him as well: